Weightloss journey don't Quit Love YOU

LOVE YOURSELF FIERCELY BABE

I've been underweight and overweight .

Imagine being 45+ lb overweight yet slowly

dying from #malabsorption, #smasyndrome,

#ilheus paralysis of the intestines,

#adrenalcrisis #adrenalfatigue #hernia

#inflammation suffering 24 out if 25 side

effects from #kenalog epidural injections

administered by #drdeath. Including but not

limited to blood clots, nerve damage, #hernia

#lymphedema. Non stop suffering, every day

was a challenge and I got more and more

depressed because the doctors said it was all

in my head and just wrote another RX. I was

bedridden in tremendous pain, unable to work.

I hated my reflection in the mirror and would

threaten anyone who tried to take a

photograph of me.

I remember driving home from a dr

appointment with more RX but no solutions

defeated and begging God to kill me in a car

crash or something...anything Just end my

suffering. End my families suffering!

At that moment I thought wtf is wrong with you?

Girl get up! Take back control of your health!

And I did just that!

You want to know why I get so
LOUD WHEN BULLIES ATTACK ME?

Because A bully herniated the disc in my neck sending me into this tailspin downward spiral!

I have been bullied my whole life for being skinny.
I have been bullied for being overweight.

I know what it's like to be so F**kn proud of your accomplishments that you want to SHARE it with the world. Not to brag but to show that person going through the same medical crisis there is HOPE!

...only to have someone hate you, bully you, and shame you into silence.

These last few weeks I haven't been myself I haven't gone live or been excited about anything.

Tbf I have been so depressed that I have sat in my robe in bed, only to get up work out shower put the robe back on and sit in bed and literally watch the clock looking forward to bedtime. Ready to cry over spilled tea.

I still am not ok. But I will be.

I am EXHAUSTED

All of 2021 I was attacked and cyberbullied and it finally stopped in November.

I was so excited to start the new year leaving all of that in the past.

And then on January 1st I received a message from Instagram that I was in jeopardy of losing my account.

Someone had gone through and reported several memes I had posted while bedridden from 2015. And then reported a video for
s£¥u@l £xpl0!tat!0n which by the way is illegal.

And all I was doing was promoting my self tanner 🤷🏽‍♀️

If I am being fully transparent here
I have to admit that hurt.

It hurts to know there is someone out there who hates you this much that wants to see me fail. AND I GET REALLY ANGRY when I see someone who is the actual bully playing the victim card.

I shrugged off and laughed about the reports of nudity I mean if I'm being honest I hate clothes.

But to be reported for committing an actual crime that is someone who really hates you.

The only law I've ever broken was going 75 in a 55 because I had to pee and wanted to pee at home🤣

Just want you to know I am pulling myself out of this funk, licking my wounds, filling my cup.
I realize It's so easy to fall back into depression. The only person who can pull you out of it is YOU!

One thing is for sure no matter how down I am if I see someone being bullied I will ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS BE THERE for the VICTIM! That will never change.

If you've made it to the end please know
I am here if you need me. ILYF

Today I watched a live on TT the momma was talking about the hate comments and messages she gets. Someone asked how do you not get depressed. She said I do. But I don't stay that way. I have an awesome husband and incredible family. Happiness is the only way! I was like HELL YES SISTER!

#iamlyfbabe #OIND #lyfbabe #loveyourselffirst