trying to be conventional=vomit (piano punk)

i can't help myself, pushing everyone away
in order for me to do what i do best
my harsh reality
this little corner, the only place where i can get some respite
oh this guilt complex 24/7
the ways of the world don't work and everyone just keeps truckin along
all the lone wolves can't hang out for too long
goin back over here now, that's what would happen
it's just the way i am (1 Corinthians 15:10)
God fills the void
the pain comes back when i try to be like everyone around me
studying them won't help me become like them
i can't help but be a little jelly
making silly decisions gleefully
it would be nice to not think twice or ____ x
i wish i could just have sex and forget it
i wish i could be in a relationship w/out wanting to pull my harr out
it's not his fault/their fault/my fault
too much me to go around
i guess it's a good thing that we didn't get married haha