"Windows of Grace", shares Joel Osteen and his wife Victoria, 16th of February, 2020.

I spent on and off, off mostly because of her, sharing my time from the 16th of November to the 17th of February of 2020 with a woman that I used to like, and I say so because after a year, she keeps rejecting me as a man and just saying that I am also a friend of her, maybe the best, but that will never be able to be a lover for her. I was approached by her through the "Bumble" App. "Hi", was her first word, "Hello" was mine, then traveling all over together, from Galveston, Cypress, Houston, Luling, Gruene, San Antonio, New Orleans, New York... but I was totally unable to win her as possible companion. On our very first day we meet, being together for eight hours then, she told me that she wanted me to take her to Church. I offered to take her on Sunday to the Osteen Sermon, he was so busy on the weekends, spending them with another, older than me, man, and it was not possible until the very last opportunity available, which was on the Sunday, the 16th, 2020, she was so tired for her previous night and did not wanted to go, I needed to ask her uncle to wake her up to go as that will be "the last chance to do it"!, I told him. She awoke her and then we went. I got lost on driving towards the Lakewood Church taking a wrong turn, so we arrived like half an hour later, good it was that such start was just music. What you are seeing here is my edited version of that sermon that will go in my heart forever. I pray God now to inherit me the best woman for me for the rest of my days. Thus far, apparently, at this point I can say that she has decided that she is not the one for me. That I am too old for her, too bland as to be able to arouse her, plus the advice of her older females around her, all of them speak against me, because I am more than 30 years older than her... but with a deep devotion to God, not any addiction, not to women, not to wine, not to alcohol... I liked her so much that precisely the hand in the right side whiter than me is hers, having herself a big load of genes from Spain... So, let God be in me, first to comfort me and then to provide as soon as possible my female companion, because at my 54, I wish to enjoy my little ones at least for a little while...!!! And, oh well, while the upload goes on, I can say a little bit more things in here, while praying on this day 6th of January, 2021... Supporting Truth and Trump for Four more years... but as I had lost her from the start... even when we visited and ate the tasty crustless pecan pie in front of the beach, the praline delicacy from New Orleans, that fish and shrimps at the rotating restaurant at night in San Antonio, that BBQ bought in Luling and enjoyed at the Gruene, old Hacienda restaurant, totally empty at that time, just for us, in the midst of the morning breeze and lowest clouds... then at night on our way back in its country music dancehall, then at Broadway in Manhattan, New York, enjoying the green sequel from Oz, and one day earlier the night cold after the rain at rooftop of The Press Lounge, at the left The Hudson, at the right the Big Apple... then the Bourbon shots and music where we heard for the first time that "Tennessee Whiskey" song... and our brief times at my Cypress room, at the Omni of N. O., at that old one at S. A., and then at the temporary house of my dear brethren at Houston after their Spring Branch house was blasted... oh God, memories now tossed to the four winds as per your choosing from the start... that I was aware of since the third day of our communications... but I was hoping and doing my best to experience something close to a Resurrection... but it seems that with you I am a total failure...