i do dis order, this is true *nobody has to follow

it figures that i'd be shooting videos so that i don't have to watch myself do comedy hahaha (it actually wasn't as bad as i thought)
i tried to chug it but it didn't work let's try that again
my brain jumps off the track
call it a disorder or whatever you like
FUCK YOU ORDER
trust yourself. i coulda just said that
being at my lowest point was actually the best thing for me
i hope that i live what i sing
what is an asterisk***
narratives don't matter, Jesus helped me understand the love of the Father
i want to love human beings but it's so hard
what chu do to yourself you do to everybody else
i wish i could save you but the only way is thru love
yeshua is jesus's original gangster name
ben shapiro does it too (smarmy jew)
is it an intelligence thing or is it an excitement thing
idiosyncratic hopefully not problematic or dramatic
mental prison, SING SING get it
that was cool that i just spit out that toothpick but it's too dark for yawl to see hahaha
trashville south of nashville, definitely not cashville over here
should i change my relationship w/ $
i can't be abused, at least not the way the general public is
it's the only thing that they see
why is it wrong, amy...i guess my standards are way higher than theirs
do yawl like that cat portrait, my friend (and former roommate) kimberly bought that for me
a smartphone would be a liability for me
i already have enough bad habits, i'd say
all things compulsive, all things obsessive
i pick my nose too much that's why it whistles
i hope i don't need nasal surgery since i don't have insurance
at least i have those aflac ducks
health insurance is such a rip off anyway
anything i have to lie about is wrong
real ass pot smokers always mock the fake weed (all the delta stuff)
we know what's up cos we've been high a lot GET IT
when they don't allow you to question anything/everything that they do that's kinda obviously bad news
it's so bad that it might be good *RISK
i take risks thru this endeavor cos i won't do it in a normal way i guess
it's better that i have a lot to do
amy leaves n looks for the blair witch project (doesn't find it)
i have it, it's fucking here
i just don't wanna watch any movies anymore
the game is a psychological thriller (david fincher), highly enjoyable film
i've given up, that's adhd 5,000 in action
within less a min i will give up on sumin
i'm very impressed by musicians but...
i just do this regardless of how it sounds
paisley is a feline friend
don't stay here if you don't wanna, i mean...
i have higher empathy levels tho that's why
visual stimulation is way more intense to somebody like me
since we're no longer conscious of our memories anymore
they will never see it again becuz of the screens
ronnit said that i was very uninviting
most will never get this, they tend to bounce if they don't understand it initially
not that i mind that they left
realizing not so positive things about yourself IS therapy
these realizations don't have to be so depressing
that final chord tho
it's a keyboard/synth so of course you hear the tappy sound
imagine me lugging around a grand piano
i guess i'd need a van for that shit
since i'm a church ladeh i should probably get an organ
don't worry i won't preach (i know why)
demonic spirits always drag females down
the internet feminized n infantilized everyone so we got women 5,000 now
so glad to be easily distracted w/out a phone
i'd probably agree to some degree w/ the people that call me crazy
i can accept quite a lot that most cannot
if i can do this, what's the point in seeing a therapist
schizophrenia (and everything else for that matter) is not what they say it is
i don't mind all this clamor anymore
what they say meds do n what they actually do
believe it or not i could be crazier than this, paisley
i lied to myself n yawl, i am coming back