RimuruTempestLofi - I don’t like being mixed race Wasian

Introduction and Discomfort with Being Mixed Race (00:02–01:37):
The speaker introduces their discomfort with being mixed-race, specifically half Asian (Korean) and half white (American). They express dislike for terms like "Hapa" or "Eurasian," as they feel being mixed-race makes them feel alienated. The speaker emphasizes that they dislike their appearance, calling it "cringe" and refusing to show their face on camera. They believe their mixed-race features look "unnatural," and they struggle with their self-image, feeling they are neither fully white nor fully Asian.
Desire to Belong to One Race and Body Image Issues (01:37–03:16):
The speaker wishes they were either entirely white or entirely Asian, rather than being mixed. They feel they lost the "genetic lottery," which has led to their dissatisfaction with their body and appearance. They believe there are attractive mixed-race people, but they personally feel they are unattractive and "weird-looking." This leads to a feeling of being trapped in a body that does not reflect who they are, creating a sense of disconnect from their own physical self.
Social Isolation and Lack of Belonging (03:16–04:46):
The speaker describes their experience of not fitting in with either race: Asians (including Koreans) perceive them as foreigners, while Americans, particularly white people, do not see them as fully American or white. Despite this, the speaker claims not to care much about belonging to a specific community or group. However, they acknowledge that this lack of belonging can be a significant issue for other mixed-race individuals.
Frustration with Perceived Racial Hierarchy and Preferences (04:46–07:55):
The speaker shares their perception that in both Asian and mixed-race (Hapa) communities, there is a preference for white people, especially in romantic relationships. They feel that Asian women, as well as mixed-race women, often prefer white men, which the speaker interprets as these women viewing white men as "genetically superior." This perception adds to the speaker’s feeling of being undesirable, particularly as a mixed-race man, and exacerbates their insecurities about their looks and racial identity.
Personal Impact and Resignation (07:55–09:36):
The speaker reflects on how their perception of being less desirable affects them, particularly in terms of relationships and self-worth. They feel that Asian and mixed-race women seek white men to "upgrade" their future children’s genetics. This belief contributes to the speaker's low self-esteem, as they feel their own genetics are seen as inferior. Though this used to bother them more in the past, they express a sense of resignation, stating that while it still affects them, it no longer impacts them as much as it once did.
Overall, the speaker conveys deep frustration with their racial identity, feeling caught between two worlds and struggling with both internal and external perceptions of their appearance and identity.