Do You Blame Yourself? [MEME]

Character: Hakai from my comic series "The Heroes of Mosai"

I wonder if anyone can figure out what's going on here. It's a big part of his backstory that hasn't been touched on in the comics yet.

Audio: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMeeXjVQe/
Inspiration: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KXeRlmksOtE