i can't not be honest about how much i hate everything

musical explanation real quick
supposedly a free country so i can do whatever i want w/in reason
i that bass a lot
the keys represent this gnawing feeling that i can't get away from
it's not bad when i'm alone but unfortunately i gotta interact w/ society
not gonna succeed sorry
there's that tidal wave that i was looking for
don't make demands on me dear world
why would you try to please em when they would never do that shit for you
the lie that they sell you contrary to your very nature
i have to confront this right now
4:37...CLASSIC ag insult comic
receipts damnit receipts
the east room reminds me too much of my high school theatre class
i just wanted to see my friends
nothing changes, it's just musical chairs it seems
standup comedy is really depressing
i guess i am just too analytical to enjoy anything
for me it's hard enough to just get out
getting out is such a miracle, why would i even work on jokes
my strengths are your weaknesses n vice versa
what i do is more profound than funny n then the opposite of that
it's entertaining to me right now
you're probably not making anything of your own tho
i never seem to talk about what i wanna, i say a buncha other shit that seems meaningless
is it entertaining? if not you're on your phone per usual
at least they leave the house so they obviously know more than i do
authenticity doesn't serve anyone, it is not valued in the freest country in the world
i dunno what to do cos it always surprises me when females like me at all haha
am i just projecting cos it wasn't what i was expecting
so broken n enslaved to my pain n lack of self-esteem
reptilian skin is not female
liberal women are obviously not traditional but that is definitely an issue if you claim to be conservative
i'll never have that normal shit, i guess that's why i do comedy
not that i really wanted it but that part of me is still there
being a total outcast ie freak
i can't be comfortable w/ other people, it's just the way it is
i am kinda special tho, too much empathy
i feel like imma bust every time i step outside, which is why i refrain from doing so
this one mic on friday is supposed to be really good
way more cons than pros but we shall see
all the really good comics have left or they are touring
how many x am i gonna keep reiterating, sorry bout that