self-denial don't make sense overall cos you obviously won't succeed

i hope that my lights aren't that bright but they probably are
it doesn't matter if i'm any good at this
i can explain mental illness better than anyone i've ever met
granite they haven't done the work that i have
there are things that they've figured out that i have yet to figure out
teach me n i'll teach you
never trusted authority since there's no explanation for it
if the general public don't understand then it sounds like an excuse
nobody cares if mentally ill people commit suicide
you will actually have sumin to give if you can accept that everyone hates you enough to not care if you're dead
everyone's so apathetic no matter what they say in the heat of the moment
i'm not deceived by the people of this world at least not anymore
i don't expect much, if anything at all
anytime people actually like me i dunno what to do
idealize me n i will REALLY disappoint you
i'm crawling outta my skin if i'm around people for too long
they just wanna have dinner w/ me n i'd rather choke on my food
i wish i was exaggerating
do not expect me to share anything else from me damnit