JESUS NEVER FAILS By Dr. Kidd.

God is a good God. A faith must be tested. 1st Peter 1:7, “That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ.” Anyone can have faith in God during good health, prosperity and good times; but a faith is tested when there is tragedy, heartache and suffering... joy cometh in the morning. Psalms 30:5, “...weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.” Even so, come, Lord Jesus!

I sincerely ask for your continued prayers, whoever you may be. I need them much, for my health and this ministry. Most people can't even imagine what it's like to live with excruciating neck pain that never goes away, although I have better movements and worse moments. Last night and this morning have been horrible. I cried due to the physical pain.

Most people think because they once had tennis elbow that they know what pain is. Many people would jump out a 10th story window if they had to endure constant gnawing pain. I have learned gradually over the years to deal with it, but it has never been easy. I think about the people in Revelation 16:10 who will gnaw their tongues for pain, because it helps me realize that it could always be worse. The gnawing pain is in the back of my neck (in the bony area) and radiates into my cheeks, gums, eyes (facial area). Pain is not something that you can show others, they cannot see what you feel inside your body (although when I close my eyes it's obvious that I am hurting).

After awhile you can see the dragged-out look on my face from the pain, like I am very tired (and I am). I don't want to suffer like this anymore, but until the Lord returns or takes me home I must keep going. The doctors have utterly failed to help me. All my teeth feel like they're ready to fall out from sore gums. It all comes from my neck in back. My eyes hurt horrible, sore all around. My entire face feels like a giant toothache (I know it's killing you to look at it... lol). I only wish people could know what I'm going through, they'd cry, they really would. There's no where I can turn. People don't understand, they see that I think fine, so therefore they think I am. Pain cannot be seen. Ripping neck tension cannot be seen. A neurologist said it's a damaged spinal cord causing the tension, not my neck muscles, as evidenced by an EMG needle test.

The Laser Spine Institute in Tampa, Florida said there are at least 4 separate identifiable problems in my neck, and they don't know what's causing my afflictions. Since I've had two neck fusion surgeries already, the insurance won't pay for another surgery. I have cervical degenerative disk disease, which means my neck is falling apart. There are 5 disks and 7 neck bones. In my case, the alignment of my neck is crooked and so disks are slipping, bone spurs, stenosis (narrowing of the spinal cord canal), et cetera. Doctors have given-up hope on me getting any better.

I had an EMG, NCV test, and MRI in August of 2011. I meet with the radiologist afterwards and he said I'd have to learn to live with the pain. I've already been told by an ortho-surgeon in May of 2011 that he doesn't think endoscopic surgery will help me. As I type I am overwhelmed in chronic pain and need to go lay down. I'm praying, but it appears that no one can really help me except the Great Physician (Philippians 3:21). One day at a time.

Philippians 2:13, “For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.” That is why this website is here, i.e., because God has done a work in my heart to will and to do of His good pleasure. Amen and amen!

I ask for your earnest prayers for this ministry and me daily. This ministry is much bigger than me, it's about the Lord Jesus Christ, Who is THE WAY, THE TRUTH, and THE LIFE (John 14:6)! HEAR YE HIM!

“Even so, come, Lord Jesus” (Revelation 22:20).

I love you all in the Lord, whoever you may be!