retaliation ain't really my thang anyway, i can fantasize tho

i ain't that much better at piano haha
i am better at keys when i play em whilst driving
still a woman (multi-tasking is sumin we are prone to be good at)
the chord in my mind is not the chord that i am playing
it's not that big of a deal, amy keep goin
they're just doin it, amy
i'm not really speeding, i'm goin like 5over it ain't that serious
"that thing" hahaha
no i don't cruise or drive in neutral
it always feels like a major accomplishment being able to pull this off
FUCK THE FUCK THE FUCK THE FUCK THE FUCK THE FUCK YOU
this is just play mad, when i'm for real for real mad...
maybe i didn't say all that i coulda, but it's a good thing cos i didn't have ta
i say what's necessary n no more
when i don't have to say sumin i digress
i mainly just say it to myself
it comforts me that God is there always
God sees this mistreatment, long-suffering baby
too much compassion to get away w/ it
i don't wanna think about what i deserve now haha
everyone has violent thoughts at some point if they live in this world long enough
psych meds encourage one to give into to all violent thoughts, no thanks "doctor"
i ended up putting helichrysum on it n i'm pretty sure it is healing now thank you Lord for yer medicine
i could die from a staff infection tho who knows
i got off meds cos i already wanted to kill myself
why continue to do sumin that increases suicidal thoughts
i literally can't stop talking about things that i care about
you don't deserve my channel, go back to yer guinea piggery
current zombies cos they can't accept that life is hard so they forsake all their emotions
why do drugs that numb you
the experience you have vs the one you run from
people are just so typical it makes me sad