i just wanna care what God thinks

we have always rocked back n forth
i cry sometimes when i watch myself do this
i wish i didn't care what anybody thought at all
i don't want any kinda hindrance
i know i tend to fester in my shit
i guess there's a (sick) part of me that enjoys that obsessive nature of mine
i am actually looking behind me, not just paranoid
i've been paranoid since i was 5
seeing the future is still pretty painful but i understand it now
it just sucks that the sheep will never to listen to anything that challenges their world view or lifestyle in any kinda way
you'll never know how much of a joke your life is until it's way too late
i didn't plan that last part haha