Losing a Parent..

To the person I looked up to the most in the world.. 4 years ago when I first started, I made a promise that once I had money, I would take care of you. It was one of our biggest motivators. 4 years later I never got to keep that promise. Another promise I never was able to keep was calling you every week. I’m sorry for not being able to call you one last time yesterday. I keep telling myself if I called every week or even picked up the call last night, things would have been different. What is the point of doing all of this and being so busy to the point where I can’t even pick up a single phone call.. I’m going to feel guilty for the rest of my life because of it. I really don’t want you to be stressed about us not making it or how grandma will end up. I know my promises may not mean much, but I promise to take care of grandma. I love you so much that I can’t put it into words. Goodbye forever Sweet Soul. I wish we could have spent more time together but God had other plans. I’ll miss you for the rest of my life ❤️