"I don´t wanna live this life" 2008 English subtitles (intro from director Renzo Anerod)

I don´t wanna live this life ( Jag vill inte leva detta livet) is the third film in the serie about exlusion in the new Swedish society.

A group of young people learn the hard way that the party drug GHB usually leads to misery. The documentary follows a group of close friends from Sweden, who started experimenting with drugs at an early age. The filmmakers first met Henke, Sebbe, and Jonny 10 years ago. Jonny recently committed suicide -- the latest in a long line to do so. In shock following his death, Henke and Sebbe took large amounts of GHB, in spite of the risks: these include slipping into a coma, psychotic symptoms, fear, and depression. Some time later, the filmmakers discover that Henke is in prison, pumped full of medication to keep him quiet. He is no longer aggressive and delusional, but has put on 30 kilos and comes across as lifeless. Failed suicide attempts only lead to more medication. In Sebbe's mind, "They didn't take it seriously. Then again, nobody took Jonny seriously when he said he would jump." Little remains of the lanky, pubescent young tough guys of 10 years before.

Official selection IDFA 2009

Official selection ReelHeART International Film Festival 2011

The most important, Swedish documentary since ”A decent life” - Peter Birro screen writer

The film hits you like a punch in the stomach. - Jimmy Fredriksson, GT newspaper

Truly good and horrific and sad and keen and upsetting! - Mikael Wiehe artist