straining --- (spoken word poetry + music - no singing or rapping)

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straining

on the first day of spring,
bury me with all your doll parts
for rehab down in a hole
to shame with the burden of the lust
of my ungrateful twin
the ugly side of me,

so here's a thank you
for the glance you gave me
the snub that followed
a point you concluded.

I'll follow you as an idol,
if I had nothing on my back
if not for ugly, the ugly in me somewhere

the best is yet to come
so let me linger,
to sharpen the thorn in my side,
I punish myself for a slate new day,
after darkness leaves me stripped
it might not quite be the way out
but under celebrity skin as my cover
I might get some leniency.

I'll tear under the warning sirens
on a bed of roses
I conduct myself to crawl when you're around
with the thorn thrust to my side
until you hear me
so let me slide over
to watch you
witness the wind of change
watch you breath in my face.

there's nothing better for me in life
than to make me better for you

sometimes I won't let myself be
I need the inspiration to ask you
to serve you better
a one-question survey,
before I fade,
if not touched by you
was your love custom-made?
A hybrid of fear & want?
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March 19 2023
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lyrics & vocals: azdi404
music credit - Walk Alone - @RokiBeats 2023
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JW_uqNTV_48