Disorientation… VIb

--- Disorientation… VIb
The continuous study and research exhausted every neuron in my mind. The books stacked up around the classroom in every corner. The afternoon was quiet before class was to resume but the rest did not help my continuous daydreaming. Remembering the beaches of Alpera and the wondrous white sands and blue seas put feelings I could not leave into my desire for release.
I know that it is not the same now and this is a memory that I cannot return to, a fantasy. Yet I still hunger for the sounds of the ocean to calm my soul.

There is a rumor of an excavation team of Votars and Scientists that will be leaving for Alpera. The information stated that the group will be chosen to leave and go to Mount Rigant in the Bordji Meru mountain range. I hope to be chosen. I need an adventure, to go and do something exciting, something besides constant analytical study and recitation. I would love to be with a team on a mountain side searching for the ancient artifacts.

Reluctantly, I looked over the volumes of material for the continuing lessons and longed for the challenge of leaving the University and experiencing real adventure.
The Hyrayarch has been safe, secure and inspired my mind to new thoughts. I have been growing stronger everyday with clarity and a new vitality. Much of the esoteric theories and mysterious concepts have the ring of fantasy; unseen dimensions, lost civilizations, secret languages, etheric healing, global transformations, emotional parasites, spiritual extremism and ascended masters.
Some of this is all too unreal to believe. I have been gullible and taken many times before. I am disgusted and disturbed with my naïve gullibility. I recall how the Solians turned me into an unthinking robot doing their bidding, how my survival needs and desire for appreciation were turned against me. And I know the point of the school is education on a new order but it seems implausible, unreachable against the forces of the State. I need some proof. I want to see, touch and feel the power of the Hyrayarch.

Lab work required by Dr. Remak is tedious and difficult. He plays riddles on everyone. He especially enjoys tormenting me. Usually I would have had enough time to get it done but I have been more confused lately, No not confused, no it I have been curious, anxious and excited about the future and nervous about it also. The discoveries in Alpera tempt speculation on what is there. With the amount of interest here it must be amazing. The Alperan Mountains are very rugged, dry and hazardous. I remember them vaguely as ominous and foreboding. They stand thousands of meters above the beautiful valleys of Tauzn and the forested coastlines of Tai and Alpera. The provinces on the Island of Rota are across the ocean to the south from where the University resides. It will be a relatively short flight for the team but then a difficult passage into the mountains.
Upon my arrival here I was dazzled by orientation and overwhelmed by the wealth and resources of the Hyrayarch. Reminiscence of those first exciting times drives me to find out where my place is here. I am not sure I belong here. I am not the kind of student I want to be. There are so many with better aptitude and talent than I.
I have enjoyed Senea’s company and miss her. I understand she is in lesson with the Sensha’s and is in private quarters sequestered in the 4th levels. She has given me comfort and love like I have never known before. I can feel her heart open to me. I know she is the one and I can feel a strong bond between us. The obscuration has been strong and confused me to keep from allowing the light of the Yscal to flow through me and awaken the centers.
I can see her eyes looking into mine. I feel her heart warming my soul. I know she is here with me now. The vision of the road ahead is getting easier to see. I feel as if I am floating amidst her care for me. I know comfort and ease and peace.
Dr. Remak stood by my side looking in parallel with me at my papers. Quickly back focused on the studies of harmonics I react but not quite quick enough before he admonished my efforts.
Upon the night before the awakening there are those who understand the Hyrayarch, those who wish to and those who dreaming. Rysa, are you close to finding the answer yet. Dr. Remak said.

I looked up at his wrinkled frown and smiled not even sure what he had said. Senea’s face was still within my vision. I don’t think my look pleased him for coldly said.

If you will not accept the challenge you will not understand the mission of the Hyrayarch.
“Rysa you have more potential to learn all that has been discovered throughout history, but you must ask the right questions.” Dr Remak chastised me. “If you will but ask again and again the answers will reveal themselves to you in patterns. This is a science of relationships, of shapes and forces. Is this all you have accomplished Rysa?” Dr. Remak looked over at my studies and asked with disgust. His wrinkled brow grew shaded his deep set eyes as he shook his head and stated unemotionally. “You will have to much better than this if you are to advance.”

”If I could get the keys from you I would be able to understand this much easier” I said knowing full well as I said it that was a mistake. “I mean your method causes me to start over from the beginning. We cannot all spend so much time going over the basics.”
“I want you to use your mind to find the secrets and validate this for yourself,” He replied with dismay. “In doing this you will validate the method and seal up the areas of your own consciousness. You must account for this structure and in so doing it will be revealed to you completely.

Dr. Remak stated this in a queer tone. I had not known Dr. Remak to be confused but there is something that he has not told me. He respects me as a student and his anger was out of character. His ways are eccentric but I know he is a master and his intelligence is unquestioned.
“Rysa, there are cryptic and esoteric reasons behind the challenge to define these ambiguous and sometimes incomprehensible puzzles. I wonder about your heart. Are you ready to know the answers before you have understood the questions? Easy answers from someone else will not do for you. You must seek deeper and work harder to uncover secrets of these aspects of interrelationships. Once you master the dynamics of synthetic energy dispersion along grid lines then you can choose to become a Votar. Until you are a master of handling fields of force and magnetism through diverse angles of intersection you will be unable to advance as you expect.
Learning the VOT technological secrets allows the command of the four forces. They are based in geometry between dimensional grid patterns not specific to the singular grid blueprint that you have learned.

The ecliptic schematics of vector energy are realizable by most to bring about different effects. Yet there are others that work beyond the mental plane. These other techniques are significant and demand even a better control of your vehicle. When you find these I will begin to speak to you and bring you the knowledge that you need to interpret them. When you learn the rules of the 22 and the 11 then you will be able to understand the divisions of the nine much easier.

I listened discouraged but challenged. The dream of the expedition will have to wait as the hope of going disappeared into the wrinkles in the face of Dr. Remak.
I sat down to solve more intellectual games and puzzles. I knew better than to argue with the doctor. He was unconventional but perceptive. There are things that I can learn from him and I knew better than to disagree with his erudite and decisive analysis.

Dr. Remak has been part of the advancement of the Hyrayarch’s technology, but his teaching methods lack patience. The best minds make the worst teachers I thought with a foolish smile. He is just too intelligent to teach I thought with a condescending smirk.
Rysa, do not smile when you do not know what I know.” Dr. Remak said as if to read my mind. “Think! Reason and find the answers that would bring you to understand the harmonics. This is a key point in your development and critical that you do not waste time. Seek to know why all energy is based on harmonics which are based on simple numbers and proportions. Are these principles things that you can understand from nature? Challenge yourself to break through in understanding the cosmic spin, wheel reversal and spiral dynamics. This will confront your mind with numerological mysteries and revelations. You are in need of a breakthrough. As I said this lesson must be learned if you are to ever hope to advance to become a Votar.

Grid geometry is required of all Votars. You must learn the lessons of inter-dimensional travel and triangular spirals. To pilot the Votcraft you must be able to control in exact entrainment the fundamental harmonics and their overtone pulsations in synchronization with helical polarization. Mathematical accuracy of these formulas mirror exactly your thought selections and must be precisely gauged to adjust the velocity, angle, spin and power of the VOT.

I just could not understand how he reached the conclusions using triangular spirals. There were too many options, countering forces, oppositions and blocks. The numerological matrix of the harmonic formula in operation seemed to be blocked. I did cannot see the energy grids and I cannot determine the magnetic lines. Without being able to navigate the multidimensional portals the VOT could not be engaged to enter the portals.
Doctor, if I am to advance I need to understand how the thoughts harmonize within the spiral geometric spin vortex. What is the key to maintaining proper emotional and mental energy within the VOT.
Rysa, we have been over this and over this and you are to let go of always wanting one answer. The key is surrender. It is allowing a sifting of the probabilities fields so that you are centered. You cannot be centered with the multitude of questions. The Votar is singular and in the zone. The Votar knows the way through the portal because he is already there. You are not here nor there along the stream. It is simple when there is awareness of the wave that moves through you. You always wish to move the ocean to find the water. You must ask better questions if you are to find the better answers.
He finished my personal lecture in his typical mysterious manner and then dismissed me. I left feeling quite appreciative of leaving this subject for the time being.