DON'T use PED's to solve a deeper problem. (This is my story)

Don't use PED's to solve a deeper problem. When I was younger I struggled with severe insecurities. I went through most of middle school and high school very overweight, and my self esteem was very poor. I had no success with girls at all when I was in school. My senior year I discovered alcohol, and shortly after that came temporary success with girls. On the surface things seemed fine, but what really happened was I developed a need for drinking in order to talk to girls, and so I drank a lot.

Going into college, I was seeing truly jacked guys all the time. At parties and clubs these were the guys getting all the girls. I looked at them in awe and said for myself I have to have that. So i started lifting weights. I made a lot of progress and I made it fast, I was obsessed with the gym. But no matter how strong I got, I hated who I saw back in the mirror. This never went away or got any better in college. Even when I had girlfriends I was paranoid that there was someone else out there who was better, someone who was stronger.

This only got worse as I got into my 20's and moved to a busy downtown environment. I was drinking a lot. I was lifting a lot too, and I spent years spinning my wheels and not getting much progress. I convinced myself that I needed to do PED's because that was the only way to truly be attractive. But this was bandaid to a totally separate problem. I was treating my insecurities with substance abuse. It didn't take much convincing for me to take the next step beyond alcohol, and for a long time I was a weekend warrior, regularly staying out until 3, 4... maybe even 5 in the morning.

But I was never able to get PED's, despite how hard I tried, and for that I am truly thankful. Because if I could've gotten them I would've done them. I have since moved on from the party scene. I have outgrown that season of my life and have no desire to use PED's. The insecurities I once had are gone and I am now at peace with myself. Since going sober, my life has changed ten fold, so much so that I even compete in natural bodybuilding shows now! The physique I always wanted was attainable, but it wasn't that I needed PED's... it's that I needed to STOP my substance abuse.

I want to become a mentor for the next generation growing up. Not only is this channel going to be focused on weight loss and muscle growth, it's going to be about living a healthy life style. Because I know all too well what the other side looks like.

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00:00 Introduction
00:52 relying on alcohol to be social
02:46 Thinking PED's were the only way to become attractive
04:58 The importance of mentors
06:26 PED's and heart failure
08:07 Sobriety and Natural Bodybuilding