Ensō - Part 1

It started with a book ”Many Lives, Many masters” by Brian Weiss

Psychiatrist Dr Brian Weiss had been working with Catherine, a young patient, for eighteen months. Catherine was suffering from recurring nightmares and chronic anxiety attacks. When his traditional methods of therapy failed, Dr Weiss turned to hypnosis and was astonished and sceptical when Catherine began recalling past-life traumas which seemed to hold the key to her problems.

Dr Weiss’s scepticism was eroded when Catherine began to channel messages from ‘the space between lives’, which contained remarkable revelations about his own life. Acting as a channel for information from highly evolved spirit entities called the Masters, Catherine revealed many secrets of life and death.

This fascinating case dramatically altered the lives of Catherine and Dr Weiss, and provides important information on the mysteries of the mind, the continuation of life after death and the influence of our past-life experiences on our present behaviour.

At the time in New Zealand I was looking for to have a past life regression but never took into serious consideration till I moved to live in London and due certain exceptionally experiences I decided it was time, a guy among others I felt drawn and few weeks later I was on my way to New Malden the London Korean community, it was a surreal foggy evening I could barely seeing where I was walking, despite that I reached the house of Nicolas Aujula a famous character in the psychic world, he was nothing of what I could expect, slim, elegant, friendly, a normal guy that would easily pass unnoticed, we introduced ourselves and he took me in the living room where I sat in a really comfortable sofa, he explained me what he was going to do and told me to relax, we started, I’m honest I don’t believe he hypnotised me but I can’t deny that weird things happened, images popped up in my mind in unchecked way where I realised to be a man living in the middle ages abusing of a girl I felt instinctively was Julie, a Korean girl I met in New Zealand and played a massive role in my spiritual growing.

This girl still playing an important part in my life and as much I’m trying to forget seems impossible, is like she is part of me and anytime she feel I’m trying to cut the cords of attachment she is coming back in my mind and soul shaking me within, I can’t cut the cords or maybe subconsciously I don’t want.

Five years in London have been a roller coaster of happy and sad moments where Many events unfolded sometime in the most unexpected way till I made the most unexpected decision, to come to Scotland, it was meant to be ? It seems like, all my friends knows that this country was the last I would ever choice to come to live and kept repeating I would never come, so how I ended up here ? I don’t know but I believe that something or someone played with my life, an entity I’m unable to see but I perceived in few occasions, who is that ? I can’t answer to this question but I know that all the synchronicities I experienced pushed me to come, like the fortune teller from Milton Keynes told me I would move to live somewhere else and like other things she predicted then over the next twelve months they occurred, who is in charge ? What is all of this ? I had the chance to see something, a glimpse but no more, I’m frustrated like I know many others out there are, the only thing that keep me going is the fact that all of those experiences made me a better person, so after all this mystery that is life might be Really into teaching us to spiritually grow up.

Scotland, Edinburgh, since I come for the first few months I had an incredible amount of dejavu’, I never experienced so many, this sensation to already have been here it never occurred so much in Italy, Australia, New Zealand and in the other countries I lived, but up here my instinct is telling me there is something for me, something to understand, maybe what happened on Wednesday it is what I needed to remember or just a part of it.

I wanted to reach Glasgow walking by the Union canal from Edinburgh, I didn’t make it but something else would turn me upside down, I was talking with my Mum….oh well, actually arguing when I got a message on Kakao Talk, the Korean version of Whatsapp, it was Julie that replied me to something I asked few days ago, I thought I would never hear from her again but things happening when we less expect them, she couldn’t understand my message and asked me to explain it in a simple way, that day I felt pretty emotional and I got stressed out, to relax I put it on a music track on my Ipod from the movie Cloud Atlas that I got the chance to watch after a colleague recommend it to me, nothing happen by coincidence and everything is connected to each other like a big puzzle, the movie talk about a bunch of people that are bounded to each other and in every new life they will meet over and over again to finish unfinished business or to meet and share the endless love that Twin flames carry to each other forever.

I needed to tell Julie everything I felt, everything I experienced, regardless she would think I was crazy or not, it was something I wanted to share with her for so long and then….a Swan, it reminded me of the ballet performance the Swan Lake and felt compelled to take a photo and to share it with her but when I looked at the pic what I saw blown my mind

The Swan was gone in its place a white glowing bird that resembled that Swan, I didn’t give a great attention to the event till after saying goodbye to Julie with the promise we would meet again the view of an ancient building hit me like a revelation, what if, Scotland were the country I lived with Julie in the middle ages, the place I seen in that past life regression, what if, I had to come to Scotland to remember and end up what a friend in London told me to be a Karmic contract, it seems like, especially after I stopped in a cafe’ for a break and found on Instagram a tarot card with a Ballerina and relative explanation of Endings, conclusions and new beginnings, a message I have been receiving a lot lately.

It’s finally over! A situation has ended and you’re finally free. You probably saw this time coming and have been welcoming it. New opportunities for happiness will now follow. It’s possible that you’ll have a sense of sadness but this card more often brings with it a great sense of relief! If you’ve been struggling, the worst is over now. Let go of what you’ve been holding on to. Have faith that your angels will walk with you into the beauty of a brand-new dawn. Put the past behind you and free yourself of a dependency. Love and Light
In that past life regression I seen myself being a man in the middle ages abusing of a girl I felt to be Julie, maybe that’s where our Karmic contracts started and here where it finished, instinctively I feel I learned a big deal in those forty years of my life, I might not be where I want, I might not be with who I want, but I become a much better human being and that’s the most important.

I feel that to put an end to all of this I must to go to South Korea, to Seoul, to meet her and then will be able to conclude this circle completely, when ? Do I have to go for real ? My Soul says yes, my mind is confuse, I will surrender to the universe/God and I believe that when is the right time I will feel it, I believe I’m guided to the right life path.