Putting my faith in Jesus, turning over a new leaf

this video really struck me as useful
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ieNTXmT3gJU
it seems silly of me to believe god would create the universe miraculously but not do other miracles like the virgin birth, and christianity has been an answer to my doubts for a few years, and I feel like my own attempts at theology have failed to bring me closer to god, I've tried to contextualize CS lewis into a more pagan sort of view of god, and the fact of the matter is it just doesn't make sense without jesus as the only begotten son of god