words are a threat to those w/out thoughts *if only i believed in twitter...

understanding my existence...that's for me
happy birthday to Jesus every day since He is eternal
do you understand your purpose...probably not
everyone assumed i'd be in new york (funny cos for whatever reason this reminds me so much of this song by st. vincent called new york)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n48vQgfXygc)
stay up all night, get up n work in the morning
not gonna fight the way i'm wired and what God wants from me
all cos other people can't see what i can see
ever familiar sigh right there
i feel like releasing something
it's just an unsettling agitation
this sick feeing usually sticks
jokes, keys, on my knees
since i'm already down here i might as well look up
damn, i really sound like annie (clark)
God DOES give a fuck
DON'T TELL ME HOW I CAN TALK TO GOD
religious *ANY RELIGION folk get mad at me cos i ain't pc
not trying to be transgressive, it's just the way that i feel
i don't understand why we can't just talk
that one voice you got ain't as interesting as all mine
i make people pay attention and leave the room
pissed off for the right reason i might add
where do i come from? i'm assuming underneath the earth cos i'm adopted hahaha
wishing my mother had made a different choice for a long ass time
used to obsess about death
marijuana vs. SSRI/anti-psychotics
...but i figured it out cos God had my back
so many would gimme so much flack for decisions that i've made
you don't have to be me, nobody does
most woulda offed themselves a long time ago
i couldn't let go of the idea that God would be so mad at me
instead of killing myself i rolled a joint
keep rollin up cos this world is gonna get shittier and shittier (not apathetic YOU DON'T GET IT)
it's good to have perspective
once again...this link between schizophrenia and weed
possession that's what will inevitably happen ****BE VERY CAREFUL IF YOU ARE TO EXPERIMENT WITH -marijuana (now essentially a full blown psychedelic due to excessive THC content)
-psilocybin aka magic mushrooms
-LSD aka acid
-MDMA or ecstasy (MDMA cut w/ ____)
-kratom or powdered opium
think of me like a current terrence mckenna who fpund Christ
...drugs open doors and many are not ready or equipped to fight off satan (before and after)
i'm not advocating drug use becuz most people are stupid
those that are super aware of Spiritual things will be alright in the long run, just trust God
fared well for this "condition"
that's why we got OFF the anti-depressant don't lecture me, honey WE WILL LECTURE YOU