How My Pain Began (Hell Breaks Loose Part3)

A quick description of how my story just kept devolving. I wasn't able to tolerate the pain because it was that bad. I had constant suicidal thoughts because I didn't know how to treat it because I never knew what it was. It confused me so much that I forgot why my pain even started.
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