Now I Understand

First (Title) track from Now I Understand

When I was alone in here, trapped with all my doubt and fear
I lived a life of torment and despair
Never thought I would awake from a nightmare that I couldn't shake
Though I tried it all seemed so unfair

I was trapped inside my mind, Couldn't speak, I was so blind
Couldn't see it, I cant understand
Muddy thoughts that I would make, self-delusion that I wasn't fake
So I lied to keep my thoughts in hand

Mass confusion all around, can't see up don't know what's down
Muddled up the thoughts inside my brain
Tried to wrestle with myself, but found I must be someone else
Batty, crazy, mad, nuts, or insane

Someone spoke a word so real
The way, the truth, the life revealed
When Your light shined in my heart
A light that flushed out all the dark
Now I think I finally understand
Oh Yeah! Oh my Jesus! Hallelujah.
Come on, come on, come on, come on. Yeah

So many nights alone that I have cried
From my fear and my pride
Lost alone and oh so scared.
Never knew I was prepared

Then You wiped away all my tears
Calmed my nerves and all my fears
You gently led me by the hand
And now I understand

Oh my Jesus
Come on, come on, come on, come on, come on

You were the one who came along my side
Never left me, never lied
Pulled me from the depths of sin
When you came to live within

Now You wipe away my tears
Calm my nerves and all my fears
You gently lead my by the hand
And now I understand

I'm not the man I was before
Your love gave me an open door
And when my knees fell on the floor
You broke of my chains.

Now I live inside Your love
Your Spirit flowing from above
Descending on me like a dove
Now I'm born again

Now I understand
Now I understand

For God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.