SkullMEDIA Stream: The Musical Mind Of A Mentally Traumatized Headcase (11.04.2022)

As you may imagine, I am just going along with it. I’m just going along. I’m going with it. I’m just going.

God knows why, because I couldn’t care to anymore. Some questions aren’t worth an answer. But, as you can tell in my stream this evening taking care of animals is not much easier than parenthood. I’m essentially just doing my best to care for animals I don’t own, and though I don’t feel right about it I take remarkable care for them. Chihuahuas aren’t necessarily all that smart, but they know to piss and shit just like us humans; German Shepherds are lost and directionless and cannot be unsupervised for more than a few hours or they’ll tear into whatever suits their fancy. They are all the closest things to a kid of my own that I will ever get, and I honestly don’t mind one bit; the same for the cats, chickens, fish and crabs I care for.
The most frustrating thing about my existence is that I have all the talent in the world but zero coordination or ability to understand that what I have done for a living for the last decade is actually all I am good for. As a man with Asperger’s, AD/HD, Oppositional Defiance, chronic depression, a bad case of generalized anxiety, a mild case of mental retardation according to an IQ test I took around 1998 or 1999, a very likely case of Savantism which my sister is sure I have but hardly anyone else and a lifetime of bad luck I somehow manage to lead a decent life, and I’m still in the fight.
As I have admitted in the past, my decision making skills are not all that great, and I’m not equipped to work under pressure (literally, at all). I’m sure that I know what I’m capable of, however, and I know that there are a few people in my circle of friends and family who have seen that in me over the course of my life. I pick up the shit, take the piss, clean both and carry on with the day; on that alone my calling cards in life are all I need, and I have to think that’s enough.
To summarize, I have no reason not to believe that my only affordable means of therapy is not by getting help from others, but from helping others in being of good service to them and making their lives a bit easier even if mine becomes harder. The fact stands: by embarking upon my talents, doing household chores and caring for animals, I have found myself in a way that few people may want to fathom.

That’s what I am on this planet for, and I refuse to let anyone spend their hard earned money trying to impress me with gifts that I probably may not even need. At the start of 2023 I fully intend to do these videos here on Rumble for a bit of money. I won’t ask anyone to pay me more than a dollar a month to watch my videos here as I intend to upload at least once a week if I can help it. I have a CashApp just for that, so if you want to pay me a little bit so that you can stretch a buck well enough, all you need to do is ask me in the comments box below for my CashApp handle; I am okay with telling you.