drink coffee. make art. lament.

hello vortex...classic ag line
this happens whenever i get on stage
under pressure, think of bowie and freddie
never experience this whenever i am alone
mental illness is purposely misunderstood
$$$$$$$$ way of the world $$$$$$$$
society doesn't do investigation (and if they do they forget where that inclination ie God comes from)
oh! the irony of my life
blessed for my parents who take care of me in so many ways
we are more than just a little "off"
quadruple edged sword that they throw pills at
...and they wonder why we self-medicate
all the other ways they commit suicide
i don't deserve His Grace but i still get it
God is using me to express that
...and i can make jokes about these bad decisions
medical "professionals" don't seem to know all that much
the gift that hurts
trying to fit in w/ society is even more painful
it took me a long time to realize that this experience wasn't wrong
they're sooooo uncomfortable w/ saline, man
my response to this...drink more coffee
i would give anything to reveal this other side
the devil has fucked w/ me for goin on 37yrs
...but i ain't a victim