DailyDaamn 8-12-22@Nermak Black - ‘The same Daamn Demons’ - SpokenWord - now on @DaamnTalk DTDJØ -

Since (NermakMuzik’s) absence, beginning in Dec 2019, a lot has transpired. By the grace of ‘God’ - I celebrated 2 years in #Recovery from drugs & alcohol on March 17th of this year, 2022. Though it hasn’t all been great. Also suffered a psychological breakdown last year, days after Our son was taken out of our life; suffered a 3 month stress-induced psychosis, became homeless & Was so ‘sick’ I didnt realize what was wrong enough to be my own advocate & get help… ultimately We were diagnosed with schizo-disorder & have since changed Our way of being! (Not just geographically!) 😏 I mys taken alot - we never thought something like this would happen, especially after we got sober & began working the steps of a recovery program!
Now, again blessed to be not only stable once again & but also actively working towards a grand vision for life. NermakMuzik (now @DaamnTalk Bringing it back ‘round to Our son.) His entire situation couldn’t have improved as we’d hoped - based on his moms behavior alone - providing it’s a toxic environment. From discovering Muzik has premature asthma …. To her execution of legalities that unjustifiably prohibit her own son from having a relationship with his loving, biological father - believing it to be a means of ‘getting back at me’. Maybe for any # of the actual, justifiable resentments she’s harbored.
But to then go on & Block the entire paternal side Nermak of the sons family -why? (Spite?) -after they paid to fly them both out to visit Hawaii, (+ of course simultaneously paying for her other kids to go to her family’s place in Cali so she’d be ‘available’ to take Muzik to finally meet his ‘Gramps’, my dad. Muzik is his first grandson & he’ll be 75 this month, (same month Our boy turns 2 !) His mothers blocked them to such an extent they can’t even get pics or updates of their only grandchild?🎵Muzik’s the newest addition to the Ohana in 30 years.
Now, pregnant (again) with kid # 5 -&- dad # 4 - & within months of announcing to her thousands of followers that, “Our son is “Autistic”….” .. I mean, ok. That’s one thing if it’s true -But she’s simultaneously posting that it’s “traumatic” due to “memories” of (Me, ‘DaamnKam’ harassing & “abusing” her about, “the possibility of this happening…” etc. And at 18 months old - These claims apparently made prior to any ‘doctors-opinion’, were posted to social media at least thrice (thus far), the latest one quotes, “people ask why I don’t talk more about Muzik being on the spectrum… …because I’m an #abusesurvivor & ‘that particular situation is’ #traumatic) *Lies.
My primary concern has been & will always continue to be -the well being of my only son; We are honestly scared for Muzik Orion! Not because of any one possible health condition -Having lived in ‘her household’ for years, witnessing not just the disfunction-but the danger. (Having admittedly added to it before seriously getting help in Dec2019) I worry that His mom may be creating a pre-meditated ‘bad-mom-excuse-card’, one to eventually ‘whip out’ while claiming she did the best she could with raising a kid who’s, “On the spectrum”… His big sister, Our step-daughter, is actually on the spectrum - sort of - with a learning disability & emotionally stunted growth, it can be difficult for her in school & in social situations. (&claims were made that We ‘abused her’ as well) 😔THIS- breaks my heart -because I stood up to her in defense of her daughter on multiple occasions over the years when discipline/structure would lack & lack & lack until it crumbled & the verbal abuse started. But theres been so many lies from her anonyst the little (regrettable) truths - & to what extent?! To keep away a man who’s consistently supported his son (?) To make sure that a loving family doesn’t get near “your son” (?) To satisfy an urge to cause Us pain(?) As far as ‘Autism’ or anything of the like- I was only concerned like that for passing down Our mutual disease (#Addiction & #Alcoholism)
Being a dad became my whole entire world on January 2nd 2020 - about 9 months pre-Muzik. Then for the first 7 months, it was Nermak Muzik for real! Dad & son time almost every day - Until We were hit by surprise with a restraining order prohibiting any more visits. That was in March of 2021. More about Our story on Our blog DaamnTalk We’ve created this for Us -
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