September 24, 2022

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new phone (finally got connected to wifi but no case or screen protector yet), Same situation

1 remote for front and back room TVs, M noisily popping gum (when I point it out M says I'm "starting to act like J", and she should move somewhere else since she can't pop gum or hear the TV (if she even THOUGHT I was THINKING about the idea of moving out 'SOMEDAY' she'd start screaming about how God put this family together, I could walk out anytime (not true) but can't come back, how long I would last before some sicko buries me where no one would find my body, etc.)), [I can't watch TV- I WOULD only watch to escape reality but M&J always HAVE to talk through it because talking is IMPORTANT and whatever I would watch isn't - if I think I want ANYTHING, NO ONE CAN KNOW ABOUT IT because they'll just want something more important)

(plus D has school trip before my birthday ["iDeAl"] AND visiting his ACTUAL "family]" for Thanksgiving][ not ideal]

please pray for me and help me get myself out of this toxic situation and somehow NOT into something worse at
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