musical explanation of "schizophrenia"/nothin is premeditated, it's just what i do

yours truly had to accept not getting seal of approval
that hurt for awhile but it forced me to create this other world
they can't get a hold of it no matter how much they try
you can't insult me in such a way that it will be effective, sari
i guess i've just been insulted so much all thru out my life
ricochet due to apathy
this is probably due to age as well as experience
that don't mean that i don't care about my conduct or my frenz
*i am singing about my friend brittany who is not talking to me right now
a failure when it comes to the real world
didn't mean to do that but it worked so well (damnit, that timing)
not still driving around, promise
at least i'm confident doin this simple thing
if (ie when) i fuck up i try to make it up
i'll prove to you how good i am after i failed
analyzing why i'm on the ground
just to do that seems profound these days
we have nothing but time
if you ever get bored with me, guaranteed...
attempting to cover is so right
sumin to follow always, can't get away from this
the more that i resist, it permeates
can't break it, so i must take what i can take
make it cos i can't shake it
malaise all cos i get sick of myself
expect myself to continue to be a human being
just accept that i'm not perfect
there's Someone that literally carried a cross on my behalf
wanna give myself to sumin Bigger n Better
politically incorrect gospel?
those three nails mean that i'll still prevail
this particular circle (the internet) not included in dante's depiction of Hell